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So what’s your horror story?

KONICA MINOLTA DIGITAL CAMERAHere’s an exercise that you probably don’t need to try. You gather a group of people who have been Christians for a long time. Helps if they’re active, but it also works if they grew up in church. You ask them to tell you the traumatic, horrible experience that happened to them that involved other Christians. Or several such stories.

There are websites devoted to such things. I’ve been in gatherings of ministers where painful stories were shared. I’m in a Facebook group with church leaders where heartbreaking anecdotes appear on a regular basis. You can gather similar narratives with groups of women, elders, church secretaries, deacons, song leaders, Bible school teachers, children of church leaders…

Don’t be surprised. And don’t give up on the church because of it. Like it or not, church has always been that way. Read Paul’s letters. Really read them. Read the things that Peter and Jude talk about. Study John’s letters and note that he talks a lot of love because he isn’t seeing much of it! Read about Diotrephes in 3 John and substitute in Brother Jones, Sister Thomsen, or Pastor Davis; the story hasn’t changed all that much.

Sharing our heartaches can be very therapeutic, though we need to careful how we do it and with whom we share. Our therapy can be very damaging to others. Worse, our vengeful venting can destroy the faith of others.

The main thing is, we have to move forward. Learn from those episodes, mainly so that we don’t inflict pain on others. But don’t let them define you nor your experience with the church. What really matters is how we grow because of the things we’ve gone through.

Photo courtesy of morguefile.com

The Sphinx

When I was young, I really enjoyed Edgar Allan Poe’s short stories. I still enjoy them, though I look at them differently as an adult. One story that doesn’t get as much attention as others is “The Sphinx.” (You can read it on About.com among other places)

[Spoiler alert: If you’re going to read the short story, do it before reading the rest of this!]

In the story, the narrator is visiting a friend. The narrator, as is often the case in Poe’s story, is a gloomy fellow, given to bouts of melancholy. To make matters worse, he spent his time at his friend’s house reading books which “were of a character to force into germination whatever seeds of hereditary superstition lay latent in my bosom.”

One day, while looking out the window, the narrator sees a monster, a terrible creature, coming down a nearby hill. I can’t do justice to Poe’s description, so I’ll reproduce it here:

Estimating the size of the creature by comparison with the diameter of the large trees near which it passed-the few giants of the forest which had escaped the fury of the land-slide-I concluded it to be far larger than any ship of the line in existence. I say ship of the line, because the shape of the monster suggested the idea- the hull of one of our seventy-four might convey a very tolerable conception of the general outline. The mouth of the animal was situated at the extremity of a proboscis some sixty or seventy feet in length, and about as thick as the body of an ordinary elephant. Near the root of this trunk was an immense quantity of black shaggy hair- more than could have been supplied by the coats of a score of buffaloes; and projecting from this hair downwardly and laterally, sprang two gleaming tusks not unlike those of the wild boar, but of infinitely greater dimensions. Extending forward, parallel with the proboscis, and on each side of it, was a gigantic staff, thirty or forty feet in length, formed seemingly of pure crystal and in shape a perfect prism,-it reflected in the most gorgeous manner the rays of the declining sun. The trunk was fashioned like a wedge with the apex to the earth. From it there were outspread two pairs of wings- each wing nearly one hundred yards in length-one pair being placed above the other, and all thickly covered with metal scales; each scale apparently some ten or twelve feet in diameter. I observed that the upper and lower tiers of wings were connected by a strong chain. But the chief peculiarity of this horrible thing was the representation of a Death’s Head, which covered nearly the whole surface of its breast, and which was as accurately traced in glaring white, upon the dark ground of the body, as if it had been there carefully designed by an artist. While I regarded the terrific animal, and more especially the appearance on its breast, with a feeling or horror and awe-with a sentiment of forthcoming evil, which I found it impossible to quell by any effort of the reason, I perceived the huge jaws at the extremity of the proboscis suddenly expand themselves, and from them there proceeded a sound so loud and so expressive of wo, that it struck upon my nerves like a knell and as the monster disappeared at the foot of the hill, I fell at once, fainting, to the floor.

When the narrator’s friend returned, he was at first shocked to hear the tale of the monster. Then his shock turned to amusement. He was soon able to point out that what the narrator had perceived to be a monster was merely a moth. The story ends with the revelation:

“Ah, here it is,” he presently exclaimed-“it is reascending the face of the hill, and a very remarkable looking creature I admit it to be. Still, it is by no means so large or so distant as you imagined it,-for the fact is that, as it wriggles its way up this thread, which some spider has wrought along the window-sash, I find it to be about the sixteenth of an inch in its extreme length, and also about the sixteenth of an inch distant from the pupil of my eye.”

I love short stories with a twist at the end. (Jorge Luis Borges of Argentina was very good at this) I especially like this story because I can relate it to my own life. So many times I get worried by monsters that come into my world, only to discover they are mere insects when seen from the proper perspective. These monsters (illness, financial problems, etc.) lose their importance when seen in the light of eternity.

The letter to Smyrna: Faithful unto death

lettersAccording to Jesus, the church in Smyrna was about to undergo persecution. We might expect that he would them tell them that God would protect them from all harm, that their enemies would be destroyed. Instead, he tells them that they will be thrown in prison, though only for a short amount of time.

As we saw not long ago in another series on this site, suffering is a normal part of Christian life. Christians shouldn’t seek it, but they shouldn’t shrink from it either. We follow in the steps of the suffering servant and should expect no better than what he received.

Then Jesus issues a famous charge to the Christians in Smyrna: “Be faithful unto death.” In Letters From The Lamb, I discuss the meaning of this phrase:

“Be faithful unto death,” Jesus tells them. This phrase is often looked on as an injunction to live a godly life until one dies of old age. While that is certainly expected of all Christians, the meaning is different here. “Be faithful unto death” means “be faithful even if it means giving your life.” Be faithful right up to the moment when the sword touches your neck, faithful up to the moment when the flames consume your body. As Christians we are called to follow Jesus’ example and renounce all claims to the preserving of our physical lives. The words of Jesus call us to full discipleship: “If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me and for the gospel will save it.” (Mark 8:34-35) Today we may talk about “bearing a cross” as putting up with something inconvenient or uncomfortable, saying “that’s just my cross to bear.” But in Jesus’ day, carrying a cross meant that one had become a “dead man walking.” A man carrying his cross was on the way to his death. “Give up your life,” Jesus says, “And you’ll save it. Try to save it, and you’ll lose it.” God’s priority is to save our souls first, our physical lives second.

(Letters From The Lamb, pp. 69-70)

Faithful unto death. Jesus came to free us from the slavery of the fear of death; like suffering, we don’t seek death, but we don’t run from it, either. Our goal is to be faithful, even if it costs us our lives.

The letter to Ephesus: To the conqueror

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Each of the seven letters ends with a promise to the one who “overcomes.” What does it mean to “overcome” in the book of Revelation? We can go back to the throne room scene in Revelation 5 to get the answer to that question. When John is weeping because no one is worthy of opening the scroll, he is told: “Do not weep! See, the Lion of the tribe of Judah, the Root of David, has triumphed (overcome). He is able to open the scroll and its seven seals.” The word is the same in Revelation 5 as it is in the letters to the seven churches. Christians are being called to overcome as Jesus overcame. And how was that? Through faithful witness, being faithful to the point of dying for his faith. Jesus triumphed through death; the Asian Christians are being called to be willing to do the same. The world calls to them to overcome through military strength or political action. Jesus calls to them to overcome by a willing sacrifice of love for the sake of the kingdom of God.

(Letters From The Lamb, p. 53)

To the Ephesian conquerors, Jesus promised to undo the curse of Eden. He would let them eat of the Tree of Life. Adam and Eve were kicked out of the Garden so that they wouldn’t be able to eat of the Tree of Life. Jesus promises the Ephesians that those willing to face martyrdom will come to have what Adam and Even once had. They will eat of the Tree of Life and live forever.

Suffering: Oswald Chambers weighs in

churchsignFrom my college days, I’ve loved Oswald Chamber’s My Utmost For His Highest. I didn’t realize until recently that you can read the devotionals for each day online. I found yesterday’s entry to be especially appropriate to our discussion on suffering:

If you are going to be used by God, He will take you through a number of experiences that are not meant for you personally at all. They are designed to make you useful in His hands, and to enable you to understand what takes place in the lives of others. Because of this process, you will never be surprised by what comes your way. You say, “Oh, I can’t deal with that person.” Why can’t you? God gave you sufficient opportunities to learn from Him about that problem; but you turned away, not heeding the lesson, because it seemed foolish to spend your time that way.

The sufferings of Christ were not those of ordinary people. He suffered “according to the will of God” ( 1 Peter 4:19 ), having a different point of view of suffering from ours. It is only through our relationship with Jesus Christ that we can understand what God is after in His dealings with us. When it comes to suffering, it is part of our Christian culture to want to know God’s purpose beforehand. In the history of the Christian church, the tendency has been to avoid being identified with the sufferings of Jesus Christ. People have sought to carry out God’s orders through a shortcut of their own. God’s way is always the way of suffering— the way of the “long road home.”

Are we partakers of Christ’s sufferings? Are we prepared for God to stamp out our personal ambitions? Are we prepared for God to destroy our individual decisions by supernaturally transforming them? It will mean not knowing why God is taking us that way, because knowing would make us spiritually proud. We never realize at the time what God is putting us through— we go through it more or less without understanding. Then suddenly we come to a place of enlightenment, and realize— “God has strengthened me and I didn’t even know it!”